Medication Changed and I Have Found Relief
Today has been a wonderful day. For the first time in ages, I woke up feeling fairly rested, energetic and ready to meet the day. I was looking forward to making a really nice breakfast for my spouse. I was able to multi-task, washing dishes and cleaning up at the same time I was cooking! I went shopping for some new casual clothes in fresh, happy colors. When I got home, we had lunch and went for an hour walk at a local preserve. I found joy in the scent of the pine trees, the just-blooming mountain laurel and the feel of various kinds of wet moss. I could actually feel the working of my muscles again. I felt so GOOD today!
I haven’t been able to feel deep emotion, feel the muscles in my body or to do the ordinary things in daily life at a normal pace for about a year or more. My body felt like lead and my brain (mind) was totally numb. For the last year, I have lived in the present moment, unable to think a day forward or backward. It got so bad that one month ago, I couldn’t remember details of conversations I had or tasks that I had done only a half hour before. I was just existing in the present moment. It was a frightening experience.
I thank God for my doctor who figured out that the medicine I was prescribed prior to being referred to him was probably the bulk of my problem. He took me off of it and started me on a new one. The transition was awful but totally worth it to feel so wonderful today. I hope I will stay this way most of my days. Finally, relief and joy. I am starting to anticipate a bright future.
Wishing everyone bright days, Journey